Awakening Part 2

After knowing that you refused the chance of a start for both of us... nagising na ako...

"Manggagaling talaga sayo" that was his last word to me... i realized that it will never start from me

but rather it will be from YOU... Clearly when you refused the chance it was the end of my fight...

I fully understand that you are not ready to let him go... but it was an awakening for me that i should stop this... that i should let go... Believe me! at this point mahal na mahal pa rin kita and i am determined to proove that... but how am i going to proove it when clearly your setting aside what's been ours for the last years and left it hanging.... This will never be worth of your time, my time if you yourself cannot find acceptance in your heart... if you are not ready for it... There will never be the word "let's take it slow" from John Legend's Ordinary People if you don't want a start. There will never be "Hold On" from Side A  if you just keep yourself silence and not telling me anything that i should be counting on from you... The future that awaits us maybe is something that would worth counting on...but it has to wait... it has to grow... it has to be proove...

Believe me i am calm as a wind while i'm telling you this and i don't want to argue on things that happen in the past. Its the end of it and that what is left and more important for you or me is what awaits us the next day. Lets not waste our time. Lets not waste our energy. If you stick on to the past then i will be not there staying from my past... I have to step forward... Remember our talk last night while staring the word "samsung" hehehehe i want that... it was like brothers sharing their own perspective. I hope we could sit this over. Enough of the dramas... enough of the exchange of things that doesn't matter anymore to you. 

I am not putting resolve for both of you... "sabi mo nga wala akong pakialam". This is all about me... I'll loose my grip... not for funny reasons to explore what the world awaits me... i have already my world and its you. But i don't have plans to jail you into my world... Wala akong binibitawan sa lahat ng pangarap natin... i just have to stop... there no more reason... theres nothing to hold back... You have your own world now i just have to step backward and grow more... this is not about good byes but rather i want you to think that this is the start that i want... 

So what are my plans? I already have my own plans... you know that... it hasn't been change ever since. But one thing that was not included on my plans... ME... like what you are doing right now  you choose to be happy on your own ways... but ME it will be different... i will choose to be happy without the word "at the expense of". I will be fair to world, that's the difference... Don't get upset that i tell you these, "hindi ako nagugunsensya o nagpaparinig". We have our own ways to pursuit our happiness...

I guess this night you will be at peace...hindi na ako magtatanong... Do what you want in your life...

You will never again hear complaints about me... I choose to be happy... i choose to be at peace on my own world now. Lets just be ordinary people without hangups on each other.