Facts, Reality and Truths

Hi,

Absurbed but it has to heard! By YOU! Yes and no one will ever stop me from telling the truth, the reality.
Not that i want to create something out of you but i want a slap of what it is for you. It doesn't have to be your reality but nevertherless it is the truth.

First of all i am not holding grudge on you. These are facts and sooner or later you and i will face it.

I AM NOT A "fall back" dear. Ganyan ba kababa ang tingin mo sa akin? Makes me think how you create something on your mind at kung paano mo pinaglalabanan lahat makuha mo lang ang gusto mo. I am not just an option. I value myself more that just an option.

I value your feelings for him, but more to that i value what we had. Period. Di ako galit on that part that you love him. Trust me.

"the secret to a long relationship is not having a perfect love affair. Fights, differences, simillarities and MISTAKES doesn't count. Give each other hope and hold as long as you can."

You believe on this right. Good Luck. Now the TRUTH...think of our life, our partnership kung anong pinagsamahan namin then ipasok mo yung sarili mo sa picture....
We are living on a same roof because on every inch nang pagkatao ko i am very hopeful for the two of us. And i guess he is also...i'm quite sure of that. 5months ba naman at di parin siya sumasama sayo... we have high hopes...Its just you...too persistent... that you managed to target the imperfections and mistakes of our relationship. A very wise man indeed. That you know how to get what you want. You know where to start and you know how to wreck things unconsciously. Wake up. Magpakatotoo ka. How can you be hopefull to your self when you know that you are part of of the wreckage and continously being a wrecker. Bottom line you are part of breaking my hope. My partner. My only family. Our dreams. Yes nagmamahal ka lang but common dude you managed to ruin a life. You managed to turn our own world upside down and you started with the imperfections of our relationship. On the simplest term, oportunista ka. Now how can a relationship of both people can be hopefull when someone else is trying to get into the picture and would clearly target the most vulnerable part of the relationship just to get what he wants. Nagmamahal ka lang, i give respect to that in its highest form but it doesn't justify your reason.

I am loosing my grip on this. I am letting him go. I want you to know that this is not what I want. This is not what HE wants. This is only what YOU want. That's the reality. Live with it. Hindi ko siya binibigay sayo o kahit sino man at hindi ko siya tinatapon lalo na sayo. I am loosing grip because i know nahihirapan na siya sa sitwasyon at napapagod na siya with all the stuffs going on to his head. I am helping both of us to breath. In a most painful way i'll sacrifce for him and for myself.

Why im telling you this... His my MAN, MY PARTNER, MY FAMILY...
and no one not even you can change that kahit ano pa ang gawin mo.

Excerpts of Mind after Watching the Movie "The Notebook"

What is in a romantic relationship but a plain and simple intertwining of two hearts? It is a UNION of two people who LOVE each other and who AGREE to COMMIT to each other. It is MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING and, therefore, takes TWO to make it live.

With the "union" comes commitment, with commitment comes responsibility, and with responsibility comes EXCLUSIVITY. For what is love without effort? Responsibility means, when you enter a relationship, new "duties" emerge, big or small, in pursuit of the goal to make each other feel loved and treasured. There is now the responsibility for BOTH to assure his Love that HE BELONGS. "Belonging" implies security, and security implies the assurance that it's just the two of you and no other person stands in your way to each other. There are adjustments, and there is sacrificing a bit of freedom that one had when he was still alone, simply because, it's the two of you now.

Things need not be too complicated. The relationship remains when the two people involved still honestly want it -- when both still want to be there, when both still want to fulfill their duties to each other, and when both still want to work out differences, just to be together. However, when even just one stops, IT CEASES TO BE A RELATIONSHIP, and to this, there are no excuses. No if's, no but's.

Yes, excuses to absolute exclusivity exist, the thing on gender being the most popular, i.e., homosexual relationships are supposed to be viewed from a different perspective -- "it doesn't last so it better be enjoyed while it's there, it can't be written on paper and no marriages are legally recognized in the country, no kids are borne to seal the union, etc." To all this, I STILL SAY NO. Everything is THE SAME. This is love. This is commitment. Be it between a man and a woman, a man and a man, or a woman and a woman, it doesn't matter. Sexual intimacy, bonding, agreement, acceptance, and the promise to spend life together are all there, regardless of gender or sexual preference. IT IS STILL A RELATIONSHIP and it better made good.

Lastly, in a relationship, one cannot be having THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. If you want me, be here, and I'm here. If you start wanting another person, GO THERE, be with him, leave me. One cannot be treated as an old shoe here, i.e., you try out other newer pairs out there and when your feet start to hurt, you come back to the same old shoe you had. Plain and simple NO.

Remember, this is between TWO HEARTS. Both capable of loving, of being happy, and most of all, of getting hurt.

I'll Never Forget the Love
That I Shared with You

Time will tell what will happen for both of us
In the meantime
I know the love will never leave.
There are too many memories;
there were so many precious moments
and wonderful times
to ever try to forget...
And I just want you to know
that I will remember
for the rest of my days,
how you helped me find
some happiness and some truths and
how you opened some beautiful doors.
I'll never forget
how good it was
to share a part of my life
with yours.
But I guess everything has to be hanging right now,

Down under the road of uncertainties
I can no longer bear all the pain, but rather I choose to love despite of…
You'll still have my respect and when destiny,
meet our faith with all my heart, I will smile
and say you're the one who made my life so worth it.

Niig...

Nalalaman mo ba kung gaano mo ako pinapasaya habang dama ko ang init ng mga hawak mo... Na sa tuwing nagniniig ang ating katawan para bang mababaliw ako...  Na sa tuwing hinahalikan mo ako pinapawi mo lahat ng bigat ng aking pagkatao... ang bigat ng aking puso... Sa tuwing sasakupin mo ang buong katawan koy pra bang pgpapahiwatig na ang mundo'y pra sa ating dalawa lamang... Na sa bawat indayog ng iyong pagkalalaki sa kalooban ko dama kong pagmamayari mo ako... na inaangkin mo ako... Sa bawat dampi ng labi moy langit ang hatid sa aking mundo at pagkatao... Sa bawat higpit ng iyong yakap pgpapahiwatig na wag mong lisanin ang mundo ko, ang mundo natin... Na higit sa libog, pgmamahal ang nangingibabaw sa tuwing nakikita  ko ang kaligayahan sa iyong mga mata.... Na sa bawat hangos ng kapaguran at bugtong hininga moy prang binubulong sa akin na na dito ka lng sa tabi ko...  Higit sa pasasalamat na sasabihin koy pgmamakaawa na muli, sa uulitin... sa pnghabang buhay paligayahin mo ang mundo ko... 

SHOUT OUT LOUD!

If you want me in your life put me there! I shouldn't have to fight for a spot!